Sometimes life happens

**conman1395** · 07-02-2015, 12:28 AM

So my girlfriend and I broke up (kind of, we're both going through real crap in life right now. She and I want to keep trying so we are...) and in addition to that I'm Bipolar disorder II. That means instead of the typical Bipolar people think of with extreme anger and extreme mania, I cycle through less severe versions of both the highs and lows but much more frequently and I also have been having issues with anxiety to where I have felt like I'm gonna throw up the past three days straight.

It's funny how detailing has helped me. It has given me something to do by myself and see improvements in, but I have a rule: if I'm pretty upset or down or whatever, I don't allow myself near my paint. I don't think (actually I know) I'd ever damage my car intentionally out of emotion, but if I can't put all my focus on the task at hand then I can't be sure I'll do a 100% job.

So my car hasn't been washed. My parents have asked me if I'm okay because I haven't washed my car once in the last 2.5 weeks aside from one rinseless wash.

Even my dog knows something is up. He walked upstairs and scratched on my door until I let him in only to lay down next to me which he's never been much of the type of dog to do (doesn't EVER come upstairs either).

Oh well. As is almost always true: I'll be fine. I just wish I could gather up the energy to go do something to my car. I need to do a light correction and remove the Duragloss coating and apply Cquartz Classic some time this summer. I have plans to do an engine detail and finally use my Carpro Ceriglass and Rayon Pads from Christmas soon as well.

Just goes to show that detailing isn't the only thing.

**Dereksdtail** · 07-02-2015, 04:51 AM

Keep your head up man, stay strong and hopefully everything works out for the best

**Vegas Transplant** · 07-02-2015, 08:33 AM

Keep on keeping on.
Everyday is a gift from Above.

**conman1395** · 07-02-2015, 09:27 AM

Thank you guys.

**PreludeVTEC01** · 07-02-2015, 10:33 AM

When you're at the bottom... the only place to go is up. Best wishes!!

**Ryan509** · 07-02-2015, 10:47 AM

I'm in kinda the same boat, kinda different boat. Never been diagnosed with bi polar but pretty sure it's there somewhere along with anxiety. Ever since i found out my now ex gf of 2 years (been apart 1 year) cheated on my with 20+ guys, it kinda puts a knife in your heart. Luckily i had detailing to fall back on as somthing to calm me down ect. But lately i just havn't been feeling it. I don't go out much or have many friends ect (not that i'm a bad person) I try n force myself to go out and wash my car and sometimes it works other times it doesn't. Deep down i know i still truly love detailing along with a career in heavy equipment. But some days I just sit back and wonder why i am the way i am. Keep your head up cause your not the only one feeling the way you do

**dcjredline** · 07-02-2015, 11:06 AM

I would recommend a nice 30-40 minute workout every morning...specifically one of the P90X systems. It will greatly help your mood and tons of other benefits.

**conman1395** · 07-02-2015, 11:18 AM

Originally Posted by dcjredline

I would recommend a nice 30-40 minute workout every morning...specifically one of the P90X systems. It will greatly help your mood and tons of other benefits.

I'm currently in physical therapy for my back, otherwise I'd be training for crossfit. I've lost 15 pounds of muscle alone in the past year and a half not being able to work out like I used to. I've just been mountain biking when it's not pouring rain and running when I can.

Interesting you mentioned P90X, my buddy did that and I just made fun of him, but he stuck to it and he got pretty big pretty fast, especially for not using a gym!

**Meghan** · 07-02-2015, 11:51 AM

Remember this isn't just your average detailing forum, we are all family here. When you feel like you need someone you can count on these guys, you are not alone!

**dcjredline** · 07-02-2015, 12:04 PM

Originally Posted by conman1395

I'm currently in physical therapy for my back, otherwise I'd be training for crossfit. I've lost 15 pounds of muscle alone in the past year and a half not being able to work out like I used to. I've just been mountain biking when it's not pouring rain and running when I can.

Interesting you mentioned P90X, my buddy did that and I just made fun of him, but he stuck to it and he got pretty big pretty fast, especially for not using a gym!

Tony Hortons motto (one of them) is if you hurt your left arm you have a right arm and 2 legs. Do the things that do not hurt your back. Trust me doing SOMETHING is much much much much better than doing nothing.

Getting your back better is important and when it is start working on those muscles and make that back pain never come back!